It seems like all the other women in their early 20’s in my cohort are constantly going on and on about how they’re not good enough to be here, how they feel misplaced, how everyone else is better than them, and it kind of bums me out because we’re the only demographic who seems to have this particular social media skill in our wheelhouse.
It also makes me somewhat uncomfortable, because I feel like I’m alienating myself by not participating in this particular ritual - a la the body-berating scene in Mean Girls - but, frankly, I don’t feel awful about myself, and if I did, I’d keep it to myself. But every so often, I get this nagging feeling that I don’t feel this way because I’m doing something wrong, somewhere along the line.
Realistically, it’s probably that: a) this isn’t the field I plan on working in, so I’m not all that worked up about proving myself, and b) I was admitted early and heavily recruited to come here, so, you know, we’re starting at a base-line knowledge that they think I’m better than adequate. But what if I’m missing something? Is this how the Debbie Downer Facebook statuses start?